The night is tender
Today is the 19th of March, 2022. The day was long and the night might seem lonely one. Though there are spirits and ghosts of the past and the future that makes me a company.
Sofia Coppola “Lick the Star”, 1999
In isolation, especially the one I experience right now, we have a time when no matter how hard we try we stay on our own. Truely. Like in front of the mirror, unable to escape the sight of our own. I think about what I am, what I can, where I can, how I can. Do. Move. Live. Give up. Take. Ask. Those questions just run through my head. Some of them are stuck and demand the answers. They exhaust me. Because I don’t have answers. Or I don’t like the answers I have.
I try again and again. Then I just push them away. Hide them. Cover with all sorts of urgent “this moment” trash of decisions. But here comes silence again. And I want it or not the basic questions raise again. And I just fell. In my heart I have a hope of freedom and release. In my mind I feel the heaviness of the burden of expectations and responsibilities.
Then suddenly it’s gone. Like smoke gone with a fresh wind. I hear the voice I long to hear, I feel the warmth of touch and kiss. A memory. A fantasy. A vision. Illusion or something real? I cared before. Now I don’t. I feel saved when it comes. I miss it when it’s gone.
Images I look through are full of recognition. The sights. Unfocused movements of the soul. Where’s clarity there’s logic. I seek irrational signs of feelings, emotions, bodies, manifesting fragility of the moment, honesty, sensibility. Desire. Trust. A shelter for my soul.
I was looking into the Instagram archive and there were a lot of “nudity” complaints, so I’ve lost many visuals. Here’s quite chaotic selection of what is left.
Monica Bellucci by Stéphane Coutelle
Vee Speers series “Bordello”
Photography by Bill Brandt
Margaret Qualley by Mario Sorrenti
Léa Seydoux, Spell on You pour Louis Vuitton
Photography by Chantal Elisabeth Ariens
Photography via @onna_lifestyle
Iris Palmer photographiée par Ellen von Unwerth, 1996
Albert Watson photograph “Amira Casar, Paris, 1988,” from a shoot for Prada
A digest from my Instagram for March 18th, 2022
6.00am zakharova_kaetano Good morning 🌞 How are you today? #haveagoodday I think we need the superheroes. We need them so much that we create someone new every day. Then we watch those selected people trying and when they finally show that they are not different, the same human beings with their egoistic desires and hidden agendas, we substitute them with new pack of creatures. I prefer those who are fun at least. Here’re a few candidates from @elbetoval Medieval superheros. Super man. Butterfly man. Gentlemen. #digitalart #artofcollage #beautyofart#morninginspiration #morningmood #goodmorningart#goodmorningpost #contemporaryart
8.00pm zakharova_kaetano #nightmood #fashioneditorial#fashionportrait @issalish and @annaengerstrom by @luisalbertorodriguezstudio for @dazed , hair by @kiyokoodomakeup by @ammydrammeh casting by @troyfuss set by @afrazamara style @raphaelhirsch #fashionasinspiration#beautyoffashion #artofphotography
10.00pm zakharova_kaetano #goodnightandsweetdreams #nightmoodwith @billykiddstudio photography #colours #beautyofwoman#artofphotography #beautyofbody #dreaming
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